krieg ist krieg und Schnaps ist Shnaps

"My words fly up, my thoughts remain below: Words without thoughts never to heaven go." Shakespeare

Alive or just breathing? Going through the motions or are we truly on this train? Maybe it is love that has made me a fool, made me dull so i cannot see. Before i could see all. Witness all, i was incredibly observant. Now? I am as silent as a grave. I am a grave without you, a cold and frozen hole without you. Pour toujours et à jamais! If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live. And yet i find myself thinking of you constantly even tho i know the same cannot be said otherwise. How can it be? Our very make-ups are different. And maybe that's why I love you with all my heart, because you are not these...money grubbing, truck slobbering, porn star must haves. This whole side of the world is bent on it. And it is sadly (hardly) something that i will never ever be. Maybe that's why I'm leaving this place. That is why I love you and why i hope you love me too. And all i can say is hope because love has made me blind, for i cannot see. People all around think they can but they don't know. They don't know us like i do. I search the faces of the gods... for ways to please you, to make you proud. One kind word, one full hug... where you pressed me to your chest and held me tight. Would have been like the sun on my heart for a thousand years. What is it in me that you hate so much? That makes you draw back in fear? O it has happened before and will most probably happen again, i do not doubt that much is certain. I would butcher the whole world if you would only love me. Love is as much a flame as it is a light.

"Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you But I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed ’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired and I'm missing you more than life itself"