The View From Where I'm Sitting

Life has never been easy on me,
since childhood i lacked self
confidence, i was the kid in the
dark no one wanted to get close to,
then the kid who you could tell
about the life you lived as long
as he wasn't in it.
That broke me then
and i am broken now.
i never believed in my
true colors , i always wanted to be
a crimson like others, but i had my
own color that was yet to be discovered .
Years passed, life seemed as a burden,
then i met you, and you felt like
my mini garden, i'd take care of
you and you'd give me grace and
fill my life with green and sunshine.
you made me happy whether you like it or not,
but the issues i have always wore, they
weren't clothes that i could change
there were tattoos, scars that were
permanent. You made life easy
but i still had battles to fight.
It's like i'd go out to brawl my nemesis
and you're at home praying for me
and when i get back you'd put
band aids all over me and give me
Darvon and just for that moment
i'd forget all my pain, i still bleeding
but i seemed to forget where i got
wounded. Life is again rough as you
left but it felt good to have you by
my side knowing i have someone
with whom i can face all the battles
or someone who will put on the
band aids.
Life was rough then as well,
but at least i had you.
At least then you had me fooled
that i mattered, that i held worth.
Now?
i'm glad you try for others like you didn't
and wouldn't for me.
i know this is my fight, not yours,
but it was nice to have someone in my corner.
And that's the difference between you and i
at this point. You have an escape, you can fly off
to your playboy mansion.
i am here with a life sentence, me, myself and i.
there is no escape here.
You were flying this plane and jumped out
and landed in paradise unscathed.
i was left on the plane and crashed in the Andes,
and we all know how that story ended.