Coming And Going

you drew a line

in the sands of time

to separate yourself from me

you left me grieving

a loss i never even knew

and the future and what used to be 

simultaneously.

Those lines that separate

too little and too late

are still connected

because some ties

cannot be severed.

i imagine getting home from work

and you waiting at the door

a smile would light your face

and i for once wouldn't be something to put away.

on a acreage not too many k's away

you live out your days

not so far away from me

you go about your life

and your sleepless nights

and i don't know if you think of mine,

i doubt it,

why would you now?

like parallel lines

are now parallel lives

Do you ever think of me? Do you ever find yourself wondering what i've been doing; where i am; how i've changed? Do you ever sit with the small space in your heart still dedicated to me (if there ever was such a place to begin with mind you) and miss me viscerally? Do you sit with...him... at night and secretly let me loose in you mind, rendering miles invisible and imagining me walking rooms i know you remember? We might as well be in the same room, and we might as well be a thousand miles away. The wheel of this world has continued to turn, long after our crash and burn. Your silence still screams in echoes that reverberate in the dark corners of me that still bear your name. That's what marriage is, or was. But this is what you wanted. Money, a fat hated and isolated pleb who you can control and use just as he uses you with his hilarious physique, balding head and style of a nine year old, enjoy sharing a life with a bloated corpse of a man who thinks he's peter pan lol. You chose to keep me away, you chose to walk away and despite my problems and issues i loved all of yours. This one is not the first bloated corpse you decided to be a whore for, the first one was just alittle more tanned and had more hair, albeit just a shit in every other respect. We all have our kinks i guess. You chose instead to leave than to work. You took the easy way. Hell all you have to do let him rut around on you for a few minutes with his minuscule equipment (i am proud that i was blessed in several ways, from what i hear he was not lol) and then look at all the perks! He is isolated because he is hated, and you gain access to money and all the things it buys for literal no effort. No work. You don't have to work on him or you, sweet gig. 

The time will come when you look back and regret being such a coward. Perhaps when he has has his fill with you and moved on, unless he cant at this point we do live in a small town and his reputation precedes him. So maybe the both of you are stuck together. You will regret it. i already am not what i used to be. i am better while you whither away. Like a single lane highway i am coming and you are going, parallel till the end. Enjoy.