Hope

Just when you thought it couldn't get stupider, haha, i just pull out another masterpiece....

Some say (me included at one time, and mostly still) that hope is just the denial of reality. It is the one that that will keep us going through this horrible life of ours fully knowing that we are going to get hurt, and that it will hurt. Hope is what gets us through these troubling times by telling us that things will get better, that things can't stay bad for this long right? Wrong. They can and they will. Love? Love is just a fools hope. Just some stupid phrase coined to keep you going, some crap that will keep you in this life "hoping" that someday you will find this perfect person that will make your life heaven when really all it does is dull the pain. Well I have thought this way a great deal in my life, until I actually was touched by the grace of love, just mearly got a glimse of it. And it was enought to change my life. It was my greatest blessing and greatest curse. For I longed for it, but I longed for it to stop. Call me a fool (most people do to some exent), say I have never felt it, but I have. It is a fool's hope that guides me. Because I know reality, yet I know hope is just it's denial. So i wonder, what keeps me going? And then much to my shegrim, I live the answer. Hope, all things must end with hope. See I have accepted that hope guides me, it is what gets me through the days and especailly the nights, the hope that once you are gone from my side it will not be the last time that I look apon you and the dream your presence has blessed me with.