A Difference Of Opinion

you didnt expect it to end this way

i didnt expect it to end at all

i am not the type of person

to come back for anything. 

because i never leave what i love behind.

i am all in. All the time. We are given a life

to live it, holding back does it a disservice. 

Imagine my devastation when i realized you'd been creating fiction and i'd been writing our memoir. From the day i met you, i knew that your eyes will be where i will home my happiness. i didnt have to think about what will be or could be but rather it was my guts that told me to just give everything to you, to us. i realize that the kind of love i am talking about can be exhausting but you are worth the trouble. When i saw the pain in your eyes the first time i was leaving your house, when i saw the way your grip wouldnt want to let go of my shoulders, when i felt your heart beat calmer when i was close to it, i made an unconscious decision to be yours. Maybe that was the kind of love i have always wanted, the one that makes pain feel beautiful and the love deeper. You are the kind of love that deserves more than anything and although you did not see it, i gave it. All i had, and even that was not enough.

So now you search for this in someone else. Someone a fraction that is me. No one loves like me, no one. You will miss the worship, the devotion. Yes i fell as all mortals do. But you fell as well you just refuse to see it, refuse to say it. Now it is too late. You chose and yous will regret it, our angels will regret it. i have and i think always will. So much in me, loved every little of you.