Retirement

at what point do we put down the bat?

When is it ok to realize you probably shouldn't be playing baseball?

or golf?

When do you realize you are far too outmatched and 

will never anything other than shit at the game?

Losing isn't fun, we play these games for fun.

We participate for fun.

When it isn't fun, can you give up then?

What then?

Retiring at a young age and watching everyone else

play and enjoy the game you gave up doesn't sound like a great time.

But then is it your fault or the gods for blessing everyone else

with the skill and mastery to play what you wish to play?

Do you accept your position in the empty bleachers

or keep smashing you face against the cold hard reality

of failure incarnate? 

When i am aloud to retire and finally have a rest

from all the strikeouts and errors.

The unending injuries and embarrassment. 

When can i throw in the towel because i have no fight left,

no game as it's called in the dog fighting world.

How many swings of the bat do i have to give before

its apparent i ain't fucking hitting shit?

When will you let me slip away into the peace 

i have wanted for so so long.

Sometimes giving up seems so much better than

and unending nightmare. 

This game sux.