You don't know what you have until it's gone

Well my title explains it all in this boring post lol sorry guys but it explains it all...

Life is short. And so many people are blessed in this world they don't even know it. Most of us don't know our wealth till we lose it, and some know how great it is and how much we have and it heartbreaks us more and destorys us more because we know what we lost. The saying better to have love and lost then never to have loved at all, is made a mockery because of this principle. I would rather never have to deal with the pain of knowing what i had and have it ruined then never being able to taint such a gift with my unpure and unworthy being life and spirit. For love is for the pure, the kind, the worthy. Not me, and not others which i have seen. That is life, that is MY lot in life, it isn't alot but it's my life. Horrible joke but the message reamains clear, as it always has and will. Such has it been in the begining is now and ever shall be. You will always meet people like me who were only meant for certain things. And that is just the way it is. We all in our lives have lost something dear to us, and rest assured we always will. And no matter how many times you try to prepare yourself for it's coming, life will always be there to put you in your place.