My Prayer

I haven't prayed in ages but I think ya'll might like this one...

Dear lord, I haven't spoken since that fall, the abandonment but I think you might want to hear me out this time. I pray for change, I pray for love, money, wealth, etc. But I know for the most part you haven't listened before and you most likely will not now, but I needed to pray, I needed to say this, I needed help for this one and I didn't know who else to come to. I have fallen under a spell I have fell under a power I don't know how to combat, how to fight. You broke my will ages ago and I have no more will to fight this, I fell so easily to this it knocked me from my feet. i need her like the rose needs the rain, she is the angel that takes away the pain that she has caused. Everytime i look into her eyes i see an angel in disguise, and there was a time i didn't believe in angels, but then i met her and fell under the spell and was beaten down. Twice or thrice had I loved thee before I knew thy face or name, so in a voice, so in a shapeless flame, angels affect us oft, and worshipped be. So now i must pray, i NEED change, i NEED evolution. i can't stand being me anymore, because being me is not what she needs, not what she wants.The man she wants is the man I want to be, but without her, I can't be that man. Without her, that man's gone forever. And i need her, so in turn i need to change to be something to her. If she is is my best and first choice, then second best must be an angel whose beauty would defy the goddesses themselves. So lord PLEASE grant me change, change me! Lord please Lead me not into temptation, heaven help me to be strong. I can't fight all that I'm feelin', and I can't do it alone. Help me break this spell that I'm under, guide my feet and hold me tight. I need 10,000 angels watchin' over me tonight. I need her so much, i can't stand it, so please change me, change life. Or grant me peace, change somthing because i can't stand being nothing. This lord i pray, i pray for one of the first time in a long time. Please with all my heart, change. i need her....