Finally let something out

There is nothing left, she was the last straw, the one that broke the camels back. This camel just can't take it anymore. If i wasn't dead before now...more than ever do i feel worthless, empty, dead. Do you think this makes me happy?! Do you think i like feeling this way?! How dare you even think that enjoy being like this! Go to hell you say? i have been here for far to long, it was YOU who was the only little bit of peace i had! It was YOU who was worth going through that hell, but it was you who has abadonded me back to it, back to it alone and in the dark. Just like all the rest