Something new?

This night was amazing, seeing my brothers and sisters, drinking and talking and chilling hanging out couldn't be better, well it could but...no this feeling can't be true. The truth tho? I wanted no one but you, i waited all night in the vain hope of you calling and some how finding your way into my arms. You didn't come but i still thought of you with every breath i took. But someone came tonight, someone who looked into my eyes and didn't find disgust in any part of the gaze. The look i may never forget because it has been so long that i looked into eyes of pure beauty and saw no fear or disgust. My how i wish to keep feeling that, maybe it's just me but i need that. She truly showed me what it is to be normal, to be whole...But alas just a feeling just a illusion. I still feel the want for you, and i want nay i need that feeling that this stranger gave me, but the difference is...i need it from you. You mean so very much to me, never forget that. I will grow old and gray, worse and worse looking (i didn't really think that was possible but w.e. i guess lol) but i will still need you, you will still mean the world to me. I see you almost everyday but i miss you...