A Brand New Feeling

Something new is happening, something new is brewing, changing starting to come to the surface. It's a new dawn, a new day, a new beginning. You can see the seed just beginning to grow, if you look very carefully, in me you will see it. And when it sprouts my god how magnificent it will be, because no longer will I want things I can have, no longer will I try to be something I am not, I will be me. I will not care what people think of it, few care nowadays why not continue the trend only being happy about it, even if that is a little selfish, shit happens, deal with it. With my friends at my side life will change for the better, to the point where they can be glad and proud to tell people that I am their friend. Because it is with their help alone that I have seen the error of my ways, that life will change. Today I saw the change begin, I felt the peace of letting go and living for once, I found out that life is more than who we are. But there was one change that I found the most significant, the most definite. I think about her all the time, but I have let go and now am just tryin to live and be her friend, maybe someday things will change and I will make god regret he ever left one of his angels behind, but for now i will just try to be with her, make her see how truly beautiful she really is, and maybe then i will be destined for heaven, maybe that will get my ticket home, my ticket to peace. A better peace than i am feeling now cuz make no mistake about it, i am at peace, but this will be the peace i have always wanted. And even if i am just left to sit outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing, that will be the peace that i would give everything for, that is my peace. But this new feeling will have to do, don't get me wrong it truely is amazing to be more at peace than i have been in ages, but hopefully this life of mine will have a happy ending, thats where i want to be...