It has begun

the becoming has well, begun. i am well on my way to being something else, something worthy of her light. She is truley an artist of masterpieces and other wonders, she as suffererd unumerably but she did and does not deserve any hint of it. Maybe it is god's plan to make the beautiful suffer, i may never know. What i do know is seeing as how she has suffered so much, why on earth would she settle for what i am now? This lowly, slime that writes these blabs of insanity, is not what she needs nor wants, i gather that. But i will change, mark my words i will change and become something she doesn want! I will change and become something worthy of her love and support. Because what i am now she does not need to suffer under the slings and arrows of time with me. Such a thing would be a sin, why else would it be up until this point? It must be an eleventh commandment, thou shall not hinder the beauty of the rightous or god like. And that being what i would be doing even if i had a thought of falling for her, would of course be a sin. So that is why i am changing that is why i have decieded to burn away the old and bring about the new whatever be the cost or measure. Because she is worth it! And what i am now is not, but it will be! i will make sure of that. Come hell or high water...i will be worth it...