What makes you bad...makes you better...

Funny how I need you like a addiction, and yet you are the cause of the my obliviance of my ignorance...curse or blessing is still to be noticed...

I have fallen all the way down. I am back to the old rants about how you saved me, how you showed me the path to rightousness. Sadly the path is paved with pain but nothing in life is easy. Easy does not fall into place in the lives of the brave and sane. Nothing in adults life should factor into the easy catagory. I find it rather funny that the right thing and the hard thing to do in life are usually the same thing. The right thing or the best thing to do is never easy. But this is the first time where i don't know what is right and what is wrong! I know it will cause me ongoing to pain to feel for you, to want to be with you. Yet is it right? I think you think it's wrong, but i have no idea about whether is or not. I don't want it be! But wrong is well wrong lol. There is one quote that has always really proven this point, and showed me some clarity when it comes to this. I do not know the author but they must have been brilliant to come up with this: One has been endowed with just enough intelligence to be able to realize how utterly inadequate that intelligence is when confronted with what exists. One cannot make it any more clearer my situation. My god how i want you, to be with you, to be worth something more to you. But i know your end will have to come to the same realiaztion that i have be been through in order for that to happen. How sad the battles of the mind, how horrific they can become. Where the only casualty is you, and the injuries you sustain may never be fixed, trust me.