Burning ever so slowly...

Have you ever been burnt? Sometimes I feel like I can't wake up, like I can't breath. I want to let go, so I can feel again! Slowly but surely my sanity burns up and all I can do is come closer and closer to the inevitable desintagration of my very mind. Like a moth to the flame I am drawn to void that swallows the very light of my reality, and no one can see. Or the wish to ignore it. Such is my curse, i am forced to live this life while living everyone else's as nothing but a "friend". Such a pity that one such as me is wasted on the horrible word. Because in reality it means "not good enough to be anything else", "only good enough for pity". It is all a bunch of crap. But here is hoping that it will all burn away with the rest of me, burn in my light...