Consumed by the fires within...

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."-unknown

Sitting in the dark, sipping a brew that will kill my mind and give me peace. Thinking only of you. I have stared adversity in the face, and with your help love and guidance you showed me how to beat it. Yet something is still amiss, something is still wrong, something still nags in the back of my mind and makes me think only of the future. Because of you I am here, it was you who showed me the error of my ways and showed me the path to my beginning. Because of you, I am the rocks on the eternal shore, crash against me and be broken. I can only say this because of you, o how I yearn for you, how I need you! I would give it all away, give it all up to be something more to you, to be in your heart like you are in mine. But alas, my prayers lay on deaf ears, I find myself wishing on someone else's star. Such is life, is the way it has always been. And yet here I stand burning, the fire somehow seems to still burn. Burning forever in this frozen wasteland of my mind and heart for it is where your absence has banished me too. Please save me one more time, please come to me, come home! Come to where you will never be hurt, as long as it is in my power to keep you from pain, for I would never want you to feel this anguish, agony and heartbreak. I would not wish this on the devil himself, for it was he who surely came up with such a exquisite poison...