Why?

Why am i punished so? Why can't i be with you? Why am a touchered by your memory? I love you so very very much. More than anything in the world, you mean it all. I hate not having you, i would do anything to be with you. Does he hold you? Does he whisper in your ear and make you feel good to believe alive? Does he want to be with you? Or better yet does he show it? I want too! All of them! You mean too much to me to let it all go. So all in all i ask god...why? Why can't i be with her, she is the ultimate high, she has shown me how to be. You have shown me to love life, but i love her. She is in too many dreams not to have sweet ones. My prayer to her: Please god keep her safe, keep her happy, keep her from harm or at least give her teh strength to get through it. Don't let her become like me. Please let her have some help. Don't spare me, spare her. Give me her pain, give me the burden she has, just to give her peace, she means that much...Why? I will probably never know. I know you and i have never gotten along but god please, i will do anything. Give her peace, i love her so much...