Love is not for sinners

"work for your Salvation through pain and suffering"...

Forgive me father for I have sinned. Deliver me not into temptation and forgive my trespasses, for I continue to be blinded by path, blinded by those who give false advice, your voice will be the only one I hear, the only one I will trust for it was you who told me the of the path and tried to lead me away from the shadows. But I fell astray and for that I ask for forgiveness...

Why should one be rewarded for sin? If pain was caused then there shouldn't be reward till forgiveness correct? It all becomes clear if you think about it. This change is necessary for my salvation, for my forgiveness. I didn't' see it in the beginning but it has all become clear. I cannot ask for anything till I have paid for whatever crime I committed. Don't believe me? I am living proof, all around me you see examples of why I am correct. If not now sooner or later you will see it. No more will I fight my place on earth, for it is here and here alone that I will be placed. Whether I have "confidence" or not. I still find incredibly ironic that they still do not listen or see, yet the demon that leads me is able to pan the entire situation out. They are so blind it really is funny, for I don't know whether they are born not to see or just refuse too. Either way it will all come to pass, if they will not see, I will make them...I will not be stopped again. You rightly tremble but it is not fear that you owe me...You owe me awe...