An undesirable beast

It's back again. After a few moments of brevity it's returned. The feeling, the other part that had long been forgotten with the help of my goddess. The feeling of déjà vu, the old feeling of all the others. Not being worth the time, not worth the energy, not worth...

Legacy aside it seems I am to be stuck on this merry-go-round? Am I cursed? Am I destined to be an undiserable beast? I knew from the onset I was alittle overboard and continued to be so to this day but there was hope it wasn't in vain. Perhaps it won't be, perhaps it will. But as it stands now the cards don't look good. Don't doubt my resolve but I see the struggle coming, the storm that builds in the distance rolling off the prairies like a giant wall of night. Sadly I thought those day were gone and done. Silly beast, this is life not the fairy tales you hold so dear. Sometimes a beast is just a beast and must remember it is such. Know thine place...