To be or not to...

To be or not to be, whether it be nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of this world...

the age old question still lingers in the mind of this forgotten soul. But to end it would me ultimate dishonor, horrible shame and distrust by the one who helps me change. For it was he who showed me how to change so why would i turn my back on him and show disrespect to him when what i want is respect by all those around me. Amoung other things of course but we need our staple properties correct? Well i need you, plain and simple, i need respect that i has been kept from me for ages, i need to be some one else is the bottem line. Don't like it? Think about just for a second. If i was good the way i am, why would i not have these things i stated earlier? Why? Why? WHY!!!!!?? Don't be stupid i know how smart you are, i am not good, with the help of the almighty, i will be, in your eyes at least. And that is what matters most. Whether it is to be or not, it is what matters the most...to me anyway.