Believe
This is yet another truth that you can never believe, that just cripples the mind and ideas that are ludicrous even to your diluted soul. This dream you see of me is only that, a dream. For when you open your eyes and truly see the world around you, this will all fall away and become so simple. Let me enlighten you, this is the way I pray:
"I am the vine, you are the branches. He who lives in Me and I in him will produce abundantly, far apart from me you are and can do nothing."-John 15:5
Living is just to hard! Burn me alive inside, take it all away! I wish it all to be gone. How have sinned? Tell me how to rectify the situation in that way to wipe the slate clean. You made me turn away from the faith and now that I have to crawl and begin anew it should not be, as a child of the lord I should not be subjected to the horrors of insanity. Why put two people in one body? What sense does that make? How can that benefit the world or anything around it? And yet here I am back at the crossroads begging for forgiveness for a sin I didn't commit. This is my prayer, this is how I pray. Forgive me, do not abandon me to the wolves anymore please! I cannot take this wretched pain any longer. For you know my sanity has slipped away! What good would picking away at what little sanity I have left do? Tell me! But again, this is just a prayer, and like all the prayers that i have sent up it comes back down empty and refused for i am not the ideal child of god, i am not the idea that god wants. I am one of gods many mistakes so he must beat a dead horse and make his point know. Don't know it? Think about it will come to you. Pray for it, pray for peace, pray that my suffering will end. And trust me one way or another this chapter in my book is going to close. Come hell or high water it will end. Besides who wants to read a non-fiction book that has nothing good happen in it?
"I am the vine, you are the branches. He who lives in Me and I in him will produce abundantly, far apart from me you are and can do nothing."-John 15:5
Living is just to hard! Burn me alive inside, take it all away! I wish it all to be gone. How have sinned? Tell me how to rectify the situation in that way to wipe the slate clean. You made me turn away from the faith and now that I have to crawl and begin anew it should not be, as a child of the lord I should not be subjected to the horrors of insanity. Why put two people in one body? What sense does that make? How can that benefit the world or anything around it? And yet here I am back at the crossroads begging for forgiveness for a sin I didn't commit. This is my prayer, this is how I pray. Forgive me, do not abandon me to the wolves anymore please! I cannot take this wretched pain any longer. For you know my sanity has slipped away! What good would picking away at what little sanity I have left do? Tell me! But again, this is just a prayer, and like all the prayers that i have sent up it comes back down empty and refused for i am not the ideal child of god, i am not the idea that god wants. I am one of gods many mistakes so he must beat a dead horse and make his point know. Don't know it? Think about it will come to you. Pray for it, pray for peace, pray that my suffering will end. And trust me one way or another this chapter in my book is going to close. Come hell or high water it will end. Besides who wants to read a non-fiction book that has nothing good happen in it?
posted by Iudex Yasha at 10:08 PM
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