Fireflies in the night...

How can i ever be more to you? What have i done to deserve this indignity? A broken heart, a broken body, a broken soul...a broken life. And even when i wish to change, from the whole. I am fogotten from your light. After all this time, she STILL does not know me! I do not know what i did or how i did it, but by god why did she fade away into the darkness like the fireflies in the nightlight. The day she slipped away was the day i knew that nothing would ever be the same. It cut like a knife, straight to the core because i actually believed i was blessed. But then again i was i suppose. For you truly showed me what the most beautiful things in life are, you showed me it was ok to love again even if i did not recieve it back. You where a blessing and a curse. A drug strait from the devil for it took my soul and ripped it from my cancer infested carcass. I don't believe i will ever be the same, the scar it left will always haunt my soul. Like a ghost that will never catch me it will never leave. Your very memory shatters me to the bone. But i have nothing left, the game is over. I need a remedy only you have, only you can give. Such a tangled web we weave.