Why I need you

Need and want. Two different things, yet the same non the less...

I have needed someone before, and i have wanted. Both felt different yet the same. The same because i knew that i needed you, my every thought was bent on it. Want was just a craze or a phase, but wanted you non the less. I see why i do but i don't, you are far to great of a target for me to hit. You are like that one impossible dream that would be insane if i woke up and BAM! You were there, and i found out it wasn't a dream. But again, this is just a dream. You are far too specail, and need someone of as great as you who will treat you lie you deserve, treat you like the goddess, the queen, whatever you like to call it...you are amazing. And thats why you need someone like that, like i need you. Because you are specail, and need someone to be with you who is like you, god like in mind body and soul. I am missing all three so i am s.o.l. lol. But this is just what i have lived with forever, and thats just the way it will be. You just mean so much to me that it will hurt to think about, because i always think of you, i just can't stop, night and day, day and night, you are everything to me and i can't stand it. I love you but will never have you, and thats why i need you. Man has always needed and wanted for what he has never had, so i am doomed to always need you. So i guess there are two things you can always count on, I will always look this way, and i will never, EVER give up on you. Cuz i need you, like the sun needs the flower...

Serenade of the Shadow

A Serenade is specifacally "a complimentary performance of music in the open air at night, as by a lover and to his lady..."

You are everything, you are my here, there, right, left, front, back. I can't stop thinking about you, night and day, day and night. You are everything. I can't live without you, but i can't stand to be in the light, where you are. I am in the shadow, watching you from afar. Because that is the closest i can get to something so god like as you. Because thats what you are, a god, your eyes which capture and pull on my heart strings everytime i gaze upon the portrait of beauty of your face. I love you, I honestly and trueley love, like no other. I have never felt this way before, about no one, not like this. Not from afar. Not from the shadows, you have captured my heart, as black, pale, as it is, and how far away from me having yours as it is. You still seemed to own me. In the way you walk, talk, even look around is captivating. I need you, you are everything to me! That is why i must stay in the shadows, away from your gaze, away from being able to hurt you and your image. For that would be the most horrible crime of all, because i love you too much to hurt you in any sort of way. You are too good for that, me, and the rest of the world. So don't worry, i will stay in the shadows, let my love for you wither and die, just like my soul...my soul without you.