Same Direction

I am feeling this again, again and again. Seek and yee shall find? What a load. I have seeked and i have found something, pain, suffering, mindless thoughts, nightmares made to reality...it all comes back to mind. No matter where i turn, i always find my mind wandering back in the same direction of those forbidden thoughts, forbidden because they are right, and people don't want to believe them. And for once i wish i wasn't right because just the thought kills me to know that...nm. Just think next time you say something that you know in your right mind you are not going to do, think of what you say before you say it, think about if you don't say anything what damage that might do. It might and most likely will prove that we are all heading in the same direction, strait to hell.

You belong to me

How long have a know you? Since we were kids? since middle school? Somewhere in there? My god has it been that long? And the funny thing is i loved every minute of it, every second. Knowing you was one of the best things that ever happened to me. I love you. Without you i am not whole, i am not real, nor should i be. I need you like i own you, i don't own you, but i love you like i do haha. One thing is for certain tho, i need you, i love you and i most certainly will always belong to you.

The sins of a man

They say i am a man, that i have come the age unto which i am responsible. But this could not be farther from the truth. Man in body, never in mind. The things i've done, the things that i will do, childish in nature, horrific in the act, well in intent. Although it is said that some of the worst things imaginable have been done in the best intent. And this not only holds true but it personifies it when it comes the acts which i have committed, and bound to commit. With such a wicked tongue i have cut people from ear to ear. And others i have hurt with carelessness and stupidity, sins that did not need to be committed but were committed non the less. We are all guilty of sins against the innocent, whether they be in our mind or in the real world, they are sins. The degree may be different to different people, and to ourselves but a sin is a sin, a black spot on your heart that erodes the mind, bit by bit, it all means the same thing, you did wrong and there is nothing, and i mean nothing that you can do about it. It sticks with you forever and will be carried with your soul until the day you die. This is the sins a man, women, or child.

There you go again

Wow, can you stop that? Seriously, stop bringing me back. It annoys me that just when i finally get the guts to throw in the towel permanantly, you find some way to throw it back in my face. Bringing me back to this dream world that you brought me too in the first place. I just can't seem to leave it behind, come back down to earth, start living in reality, no more hope. Some people say that hope is just the denial of reality, which on some levels is true, on the other hand, it is only hope that keeps us floating, keeps us alive, keeps us believing that maybe someday...someday soon, you will finally come back and be in my dream world, be with me...well lets not get too ahead of ourselves, i still have this towel in my hand thanks to you, and man, there you go again...