Lucky in cards, unlucky in...

I have won thousands, maybe tens of thousands making places of gambling wish they never knew my name. Same in life. People have argued points even blindly knowing they are wrong. Such energy should be put to better use. How sad that people can't see the truth right in front of them. How sad they doubt me when even in the end all I can say is...I told you so...

I wash my hands of the blind, deaf and retarded. Those who spit nothing but "He doesn't love me!", or "I can change him!" or "Josh you are so amazing! I love you for being such a good friend and listening..." To all the crap I have to spit, all the bull I tell you. I am telling you now, I wash my hands and want nothing to do with the stupidity of those who refuse to see the light, open your eyes! Like the gambling world, its not what you know...Its what you can prove. I know I can win this bet, I know I can win my money back. Do you? Can you prove it? NO! I can. Don't doubt me. Don't even think of it. I say only what I can prove. If you remember anything remember this, your god is dead and its not what you know, its what you can prove...

Insanity...

Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results...

If I do it why can't others? I see insanity all over now that I look at it. Star light, star bright. You are the first star that I see tonight, wish I may, wish I might, why am I in such a blight. I sit and watch instead of live. I guess they were not cursed with what you gave me, the only thing you gave me. A mind. No longer will I wait, if others are going to rot so be it. Every second should count, I of all people should see that. Being on the threshold (THRESHOLD! BRING US TO THE THRESHOLD!) twice. Literally sitting down with the devil and playing his game. You think that I would see more than my unholy faults. Yet when I do open my eyes I see how insane you truly are. I asked for forgiveness, at least I was given my answer. I didn't ignore it like you. As of me? I will see you in the pit, we will spend eternity together, an eternity in internal damnation. Yet hell will offer no suprise for me, I have already been living it...

Caged...

The Devil is real, I made his cage...I am his cage...

I can't escape this hell, so many times I've tried and yet I remain caged inside. He is there, waiting, watching. And I fear what he might do if he did get out. Look like me, talk like me, but would you really know if it wasn't? Behind these blues eyes lies a monster, you can't see him. All he sees is you. Would you know if you looked, would you look and not see? Please do not leave me, I have been alone far too long...