The Gospel according to tranquilty and the essence of peace

...For the kingdom of god is not meat and drink; but rightousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost...-Romans 14:17

And he would say to those who had the wisdom to listen, "As long as I am the world, I am the light of the world" (john 5:35). And for those who would not listen or caste him away for a fool it was a eternity of pain and blindness as they have fallen to the path of the unrightous and they shall never again know peace and what it was to have it. For if you spurn the one who brings you glory then why should forgivness be given? For peace is only found if one truly desires it and welcomes it with open arms, never spurring it, never casting it away. But always charishing it in all it's glory...

Wash away the the visions of a dream...

Luke 5:32- "I came not to call the righteous, but the sinners to repentance."

...The bible says without question that one day everyone will give an account of themselves to god. Whether it the affliction that one has sustained is one matter, or whether it be that they themselves did not know truly the word and what it meant. And whether they felt the pull of the lord and knew their place among the multitudes and the masses will be irrelevant. It is did they find their place and stay there! Or did the lord have to persuade them with other means such as pain and suffering. For it is also that one should work for their salvation through pain and suffering (Letter to the Romans). Whether the road be long and wounding or short and rocky makes no difference. The ends always justify the means, again whether them come painful or not. For one should not know joy if they do not know pain. And if one is nothing but pain it should remain for their spot in the balance of life and the plan of the lord would be thrown aback and sent realing, destroying the rest of plan and the motion of what was put in place. To on oblast sancify ter osvoboditi to s pranje od poškropiti z izraziti z besedami-ephesians 5:26

Believe

This is yet another truth that you can never believe, that just cripples the mind and ideas that are ludicrous even to your diluted soul. This dream you see of me is only that, a dream. For when you open your eyes and truly see the world around you, this will all fall away and become so simple. Let me enlighten you, this is the way I pray:

"I am the vine, you are the branches. He who lives in Me and I in him will produce abundantly, far apart from me you are and can do nothing."-John 15:5

Living is just to hard! Burn me alive inside, take it all away! I wish it all to be gone. How have sinned? Tell me how to rectify the situation in that way to wipe the slate clean. You made me turn away from the faith and now that I have to crawl and begin anew it should not be, as a child of the lord I should not be subjected to the horrors of insanity. Why put two people in one body? What sense does that make? How can that benefit the world or anything around it? And yet here I am back at the crossroads begging for forgiveness for a sin I didn't commit. This is my prayer, this is how I pray. Forgive me, do not abandon me to the wolves anymore please! I cannot take this wretched pain any longer. For you know my sanity has slipped away! What good would picking away at what little sanity I have left do? Tell me! But again, this is just a prayer, and like all the prayers that i have sent up it comes back down empty and refused for i am not the ideal child of god, i am not the idea that god wants. I am one of gods many mistakes so he must beat a dead horse and make his point know. Don't know it? Think about it will come to you. Pray for it, pray for peace, pray that my suffering will end. And trust me one way or another this chapter in my book is going to close. Come hell or high water it will end. Besides who wants to read a non-fiction book that has nothing good happen in it?

New testament to the faith: the gospel according to duality in reference to the word...

The Gospel according to duality in reference the word and what it means to lives of those who follow it:

To not listen to the word is that of making of a mortal sin. For to deny the enlightenment that the word provides is also to ignore the voice that has stood by in the shadows and watched as the fallen one was beaten by fate, ridiculed by those around him and torn and tripped by the malice of those he thought closest to him. But answer this. Who closer than the one that dwells within? Can one be closer? He thought so, he thought wrong of course. One should see the light in front of him no? No matter how hard it is to cast away the mask of sanity that would leave him within the realm of the normal. At least by the opinions of others, which is slipping away anyway like this ones very sanity. But let it slip, don't hide away from the murmurs of the one that dwells within. For it was he and he alone who picked up the pieces and hide you away from the very reality those who would see you burnt and broken thrust upon you. For that is the life which we live, life or something like it. This is the vigil, the vigil to those who see this. So a vigil to none and a vigil to all. For that is the gospel according to duality. One body, two minds. Torn by hope which has proven yet and yet again that it is only the denial of reality. A pity that so many for blinded by this, and do not wish to see the pain the fallen one has endured just to be that which is something, anything really. But follow the word for without it you can be nothing, not now, not ever...

The Word

Forgive us are trespasses, for we not meant to make them. But humanity seeps through the cracks and even if I hear the the undying word I still cannot bring my mind to wrap around it. I am so sick, and infected with what I am and where I live, empty bliss, selfishness, let me live!

It pains me to see me struggle with the reality of this stupidity. Hear it, I'm screaming it, your heeding to it now. He is the oldest story in the book, he yearns for the one thing he cannot have. Such a pity, the potential he carries is boundless, if given the right direction he could take the world. But of course he doesn't want that, and those closest to him show him the path to darkness, lead him astray and into the valley of the dead. For he cannot possibly be alive, just take a glance!

I shall not fear when I walk through the valley of darkness for I am armed with the word and it and it alone is all I hear, for it was the word that tried to keep from the path of pain and suffering, yet I was blind. Listened to those destined to cause the pain and was lead astray and was lost, abandoned and alone. But it was he who cannot be named that saved me, for he never left. He only silenced so that I may see the truth and forever know that the word and only the word shall set me free. Not the foolishness of those blinded by their own path. Whether they choose it or are born with that abnormality is irrelevant, they are still wrong and because of that fact and that fact alone I proven correct time and time again. Prove me otherwise I dare you. If not? Then the word will once again be all I hear, for it is all I hear when I am sleeping. It is he who is there when I lay my head to rest and when I wake. Not the malice that is others. Such a pity they cannot see. For all they spit it is all in vain with two simple words...Prove it...

Love is not for sinners

"work for your Salvation through pain and suffering"...

Forgive me father for I have sinned. Deliver me not into temptation and forgive my trespasses, for I continue to be blinded by path, blinded by those who give false advice, your voice will be the only one I hear, the only one I will trust for it was you who told me the of the path and tried to lead me away from the shadows. But I fell astray and for that I ask for forgiveness...

Why should one be rewarded for sin? If pain was caused then there shouldn't be reward till forgiveness correct? It all becomes clear if you think about it. This change is necessary for my salvation, for my forgiveness. I didn't' see it in the beginning but it has all become clear. I cannot ask for anything till I have paid for whatever crime I committed. Don't believe me? I am living proof, all around me you see examples of why I am correct. If not now sooner or later you will see it. No more will I fight my place on earth, for it is here and here alone that I will be placed. Whether I have "confidence" or not. I still find incredibly ironic that they still do not listen or see, yet the demon that leads me is able to pan the entire situation out. They are so blind it really is funny, for I don't know whether they are born not to see or just refuse too. Either way it will all come to pass, if they will not see, I will make them...I will not be stopped again. You rightly tremble but it is not fear that you owe me...You owe me awe...