Burning ever so slowly...

Have you ever been burnt? Sometimes I feel like I can't wake up, like I can't breath. I want to let go, so I can feel again! Slowly but surely my sanity burns up and all I can do is come closer and closer to the inevitable desintagration of my very mind. Like a moth to the flame I am drawn to void that swallows the very light of my reality, and no one can see. Or the wish to ignore it. Such is my curse, i am forced to live this life while living everyone else's as nothing but a "friend". Such a pity that one such as me is wasted on the horrible word. Because in reality it means "not good enough to be anything else", "only good enough for pity". It is all a bunch of crap. But here is hoping that it will all burn away with the rest of me, burn in my light...

Sometimes I surprise myself...

Too smart for my own good. I saw it, then lived it. I turned a blind eye but it still comes back. Just another one on the ever growing list of failures. No more tho, now, more then ever will it be change. Bottom to top there will be nothing left of this nothing wanna-be. We are dirt, we are alone, we are very far from sober. Look closer, are you like me? Are you...Ugly?

Murmur...

What is in a whisper? T's a pity we all see nothing but the nothingness of a selection. Things must be graded on what they lack instead of what they are already. Can a glass be half full if it is empty? The answer is in the murmur, the lines between the lines, the thoughts your brain does not wish to processes enough to make sense of it. I think Sigmund Freud said it best when he talked about the simple human instinct to change and become, the reason? "Simple...Nothing more or less theme the deepest, most desperate desire of our hearts..." Make of it what you will, I will leave to you to figure out what this means and then what you will do about it...