The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage

Spinning the cylinder, funny saying, serious meaning. Twice I played, twice I stand before you. Legacy? Not a chance. Unless one of blindness and stupidity. The grip on sanity that I once held was something to be proud of, something to be revered with wonder and awe but has turned my mask of reality into a shade of doubt regret and pain. I once saw the sun, but again I was disillusioned by the fact that I can't stack up to anyone around me, and even those who I can't see end up ruining and misshapenness this rotting corpse I call a life. I'm trying to keep it together but I keep falling apart. I swore I would never be broken again yet here I find myself in more shattered pieces then before...

Take a minute, just to think...

I miss you, no other way to put it. The days are long and with only myself in my head I can't even begin to think. It is frustrating that all the care in the world hits a wall and bounces back and unfortunately proves what I have been saying for ages. I am not meant for peace, obviously. I want to be proven wrong, so incredibly it hurts to think that I can't be with you in any form. But not by my choosing, oh no. I have hurt you and for that I am sorry, I can't apologize enough. Please come back. I need you so much you have no idea. I have tried to Live Strong but without the person who got me out of that bed I am doomed repeat this roller coaster of inhuman torture. I mean every word I say so please with all my heart, come back. I need you now more then ever, he is stronger than anyone, including myself, believes...

Nesmrtelnost vule prijít k rozumu jako takový ar dobrý strih do ono

Immortality will come to such as are fit for it...

We are all here for one reason or another. Whether that reason is to cause others pain, pull them from the gutter which they thought they were in or just be that guardian angel watching from afar. Each person will stay here in this hell hole till their reason for being here is done, plain and simple. I am a plain example of it, ask me sometime of the things that I tried to put in my way, and yet still I stand. When no others would accept my malevolence and yet I still stand. I am here to stay unfortunately and I will stay till I have obviously done the job your god mistakenly cursed me with. Ask me sometime of the hardships, the obstacles, and even games of my own design which I weathered to be here. I withstood them all for one reason, because I have too. Don't agree? Prove me wrong, I dare everyone and anyone to prove anything I say wrong. It can't be done. Your calling but I can't here you, I'm not listening anymore, your subject to falling but I can't save you, I don't see you anymore...