Still Waiting

 i was left in an open field

an unharvested crop

from a crooked seed

that spoiled in the sun

i thought the crows

would have plucked me clean

instead i sit untouched

still waiting

Avascular Necrosis

Imagine a cut 

a swollen crack

seeping decadent marrow

from your bone

Now imagine it being crushed

against your bodyweight

imagine the mind altering pain,

of a dagger in your wound

that is my disease

avascular necrosis 

singing hell into my legs

my arthritic master

Bad Dream

 i dreamt for so long,

My flesh was dull gold

and my blood, rotted and vile.

Corpse after corpse

left in my wake,

as i awaited

her return

And still i dream...

Her

 Behold her bloom!

Recall her name!

the fruit you eat

eats you the same.

Though the branch holds you,

you hang!

Speaking in Tongues

 i speak to the wild,

the ocean and the moon

with the hope

my whispers 

will find you

Right There

 You linger

on the periphery 

of "almost"

or "close"

of where my happiness

would lie if i could touch it

Definition

 Grief  (greef)

/noun/

a fissure,

bones parted with force,

a name disguised with wire

and lodged in the copper

of the throat.

Dreamless

 For thirty days i dreamt of you

and thirty ones days

you were taken from me

a love that died

of illness and wounds

an infected cut

that never healed 

a precious memory

that i've forgotten

Where are you?

 i am filled 

with a longing that hurts

my soul (or what remains)

is stretching between

two borders

unable to stay here,

unable to reach there.

Guess where you are?

Hope

 How often

i lay bleeding

at the feet

of hope

Versions

Most days

i am all the versions 

of myself

i never wanted to be.

A dying star

lost in the daydream of implosion